I've spent a lot of time thinking about what I want from this year. It's a balancing act of being proactive and being able to successfully deal with whatever Karma throws at us. I'm looking for progress but just what does progress mean? Unlike previous years when I've simply hoped for the best, this year I'm starting a life list of things that I'd like to accomplish. Just accomplish this year. Things towards which I'll put my energy. In the past I haven't been very specific about what those things were and naturally many of them never came to pass. On the flip side, sometimes during the year I've accomplished other things that somehow didn't amount to anything in my mind but conventionally were successful. One being that I went and got help for my mental illness. That was a pretty big accomplishment.
Anyway, this year there are four main things that I'd like to focus on. The first is getting healthy. I have a specific number of pounds I'd like to lose and have already started in on Weight Watchers with some success.
The second is to cultivate a relationship with a spiritual teacher. Amazingly my Teacher is on Skype so I can receive teachings long distance. I'll also (hopefully) travel back east this summer to see him (and some other special people!) I just step myself up on Skype yesterday and as soon as I get a headset and microphone, I can communicate with him. The third is do everything in my power to put all our immigration woes behind us. I'm going to lobby pro bono lawyers until one of them agrees to help us and gets us positive results. It's a major, major source of stress and working on it all is terrifying. But it must be done and I'm the only one who can do it. I pray all of you never have any reasons to need to deal with the department of homeland security.
The four thing is to get my financial house in order. To stop fleeing from *Cindy* Mae, to have a balanced checkbook, to make just enough to cover my expenses and a little left over for savings. I've found this last one easier to deal with lately since I have so little to balance. Still, I'm trying to be a good steward to the money that I do receive, and be smart with it. I have a lot to learn about financial literacy.
Every other little thing I want to accomplish is tied up in these four. If I chip away at them, a little every day, I'm sure I'll have a positive report by the end of the year next February.
