I’ve been hesitant to use the word addiction when describing my relationship with food. I’ve seen people torn to shreds on My Fitness Pal for daring to say they are addicted to food or use the language of sobriety to describe living day by day to keep the cravings in check.
Now I’m not saying that addiction to food is as acute an illness as drug or alcohol addiction. Not everyone with food issues is an “addict.” Maybe food addiction isn’t even a thing. I’m just suggesting that some of the addictive behaviours are the same. Here is a link to some common characteristics of addictive behaviour. Take a look and see if any of them ring a bell in regards to food or anything else. If yes, well, welcome to the club.
I eat in secret. I use bill money for food. I can’t stop at just one of anything. I empty piggy banks of dimes and nickels just to get a fix when I’m low on cash. Some days are worse than others. I eat until I’m sick. I don’t eat at all. I think entirely too much about what and when I’ll get to eat next. I eat things I don’t like just because they’re available. I take seconds when I’m already full. I plan. I scheme. I hide. I lie. I smile. I binge. I regret. I start over.
This is what addicts do. This is what I do. Sound familiar?
I do think that if using the language of sobriety is helpful to you in learning to change your habits in regards to food, then use it. I use it. I’m on day 1, again. Whether you want to call it a disorder, an addiction, a habit, or a problem, it’s a real thing that needs real attention. Maybe, probably, professional attention. I’m getting it. I encourage you to get it, too, if you feel like life is out of control. If you don’t like what you’re doing and you feel like you can’t stop by yourself, that means it’s time to get help. Maybe try OA. Or FA. Maybe talk to your physician. Call a helpline. Something.
p.s. I am not a trained medical professional. I am sharing only my own thoughts and experiences here. Please seek out professional help if you feel that you have an addiction problem.